" ♡ All I wanna do, is keep on crashing into you ♡"
Oh Valentine be mine… The sun is (somewhat) shining, birds are a' tweeting, and love is in the air (in reality the scent of coffee and stale food is in the air where i'm currently sat writing this…) But I digress, for someone who has written extensively on solitude and enjoying being single, today's post will be pretty surprising as it's about opening up your heart, and striking a balance between self love, being open to love and recieveing affection from others. Quelle horreur those who know me in real life may say, Sade, writing about ~feels~ no way! But yes way guys, yes way, I am a changed woman, I am embracing emotions and trying (emphasis on trying) to be more at one with expressing myself and not feeling vulnerable or weak for doing so.
I'll use myself as an example. I'm a strange mixture of overly emotional yet not actually showing much emotion in real life, weird indeed. It's not that i *don't* want to show emotions, it's simply that I'm not sure how to express the whirlwind of emotions in my chest and pour them out into real life, or indeed into writing (which i've seriously been sucking at - sorry veteran blog readers, i'm sure you've noticed too!). I think I used to and somewhat still feel that if I react to anything too emotionally that i'd lose some of my strength, which is absurd and robotic. There comes a point when you realise your self preservation is almost stunting your growth, and it's something I came to terms with at the end of last year. My obsession with avoiding anything that would cause me emotional turmoil began to stunt my progress in little things in life and I realised that it simply would not do, so this year has definitely been a year of firsts and challenges on my part in regards to blossoming and opening up to people, be it family, friends or loved ones.
So I say all this to express the importance in balancing self preservation with learning to keep your heart open, love is only around the corner as they say ;)
Happy Valentine's Day Internet Friends!
What I Wore…
Jumper - Joanie Clothing | Jeans - ASOS | Beret - Monki | Shoes - Primark | Bag - Joanie Clothing
photos by Domi
photos by Domi