My late teens are where silence became a solace for me. In the quiet, I learned to truly listen to myself without the swirling noise of the chaos called the world to bend, break and twist my thoughts. In the quiet one can truly find the peace I believe. It is something that people often find unnerving when they come into my life. "But... But... But why would you want to be alone?", a question that has been posed to me many a time. I often chuckle and wink explaining to them, that I'd like to spend some time with one of the most important people in my life. Myself. This isn't a gimmicky self-care 101 type of thing, it's a genuine need for me-time, to just chill out and let my brain rest. The introvert in me has genuinely grown to treasure solitude and I think there is something special about the echoing silence that surrounds you in moments of alone-ness. I'm talking alone, not lonely, for there is a difference my friends. I enjoy being alone, but not being lonely, something I've written about roughly here.
2018 rushed into our lives with a whirlwind of fireworks, optimism and promises of this being our year; now we're hurtling through the months - racing through March, and a lot of us are wondering, "How are we already this far in?!". We've been working in silence, building things up brick by boring brick and I can sense the deafeningly monotonous tinkering of the hopeful and the faithful trying, trying and trying again. Often my best works or achievements come out of the silent periods. I mean silence on all levels, physical silence and what I consider spiritual silence. When you're physically alone, when you feel like you're spiritually alone and when things in life are quiet when you're not sure where you should be, or what you should be doing. When you've metaphorically sown your seeds, toiled the ground endlessly and still have yet to see a single bud emerge from the ground. For me, this has always been a sign that bigger and greater things are to come, should I keep on toiling.
One of the most difficult things to do I think is work in silence in this day and age. We live in an era of almost instantaneous and instant gratification so it can be heartbreakingly hard to keep climbing our personal mountains. A lot of the time it feels like one step forward, three steps back, and we can look to our left and right and see others thriving and living their best lives. Keep going and fix your eyes on the race before you, even when your legs hurt, even when you want to break down and cry, even when your chest feels like it's going to explode. Keep going, keep walking your path in the quiet. I should probably note that I myself have been fairly absent from social media/blogging as I'm climbing my own personal mountains and toiling the ground as it were. I'm right beside you, waiting for all things to come together for good. 

There is beauty in the silence. Keep going. Try again, try again, try again, try again, try again, try again and try yet again.  There is someone, something, infinitely bigger than all of us working all things for good. Always remember this.

What I Wore...

 DENIM PINAFORE - asos (old) | ROLLNECK - boden | BOOTS - topshop (old)