1.02.2019

Planted Not Buried: 2018 A Year In Review.

A brief few words...I’m typing this with a warm pastel de nata in my mouth and a piping coffee in my hand. Thoughtfulness, reticence, and tranquillity fall over me like a veil.  Last year was interesting, to say the least, filled to the brim with uncomfortable experiences, I had thought 2017 was a difficult year - but boy did 2018 come through hard. There were times where I quite literally thought I could not and would not make it through. It seemed that I would carefully take one step forward only for the ground to give way, forcing me to crawl back to the starting line like an injured bird. 
I had initially wanted to write this post similarly to how I wrote last years post 'Six defining moments', but I typed it up - and scrapped it all (hence the late upload) because it didn't feel quite right and I felt like I was forcing myself to find six defining moments. For me there weren't specific defining moments last year - I can honestly say that the entire year was a learning curve that taught me how to deal with disappointment, hostility, fear, sadness and so much more. More specifically I learned how to be more vulnerable and I really opened up my heart to people that I trusted and in turn, they held my heart like a prized possession, gently, and they soothed my fears with gospel before allowing me to place her back into my chest. My job situation was probably something you've all gotten a little bored of hearing about oui? I myself am honestly exhausted about forever talking about academia and careers but I have a duty to write about ALL the things - good and bad. Last year, I started a job - and subsequently left that job (along with every other employee) due to a highly aggressive director. I then started another job - and subsequently left that job on a mutual decision due to it not being the right fit. I then started another job - finally, the job of my dreams, wonderful directors and an office dog to boot, with a direct train from my house to the office - and subsequently was let go of just before Christmas due to uncertainty in the construction industry (thanks Brexit ugh). So astonishingly I'm back where I started this time last year, except with a huge amount of new work in my portfolio and a lot of new skills and programmes under my belt. I spent December packing up my things in the office and wishing my old employers well (they really are the best!), and spent the holiday period with family and friends, laughing, drinking and eating. If anything, this has been a wonderful year for friendships, from my friends gathering together to send me flowers and a stupendously sweet card (covered in images of all of us *sob*)when they heard about my bad news to friends quite literally holding my hands whilst i cried.
I spent a lot of time in 2018 listening to Pastor Michael Todd's 'Planted Not Buried' series, and it truly redefined the way I looked at my circumstances, now in January 2019 I can look back at last year as either being buried in the dirt or planted in it. The dirt is dark, it is uncomfortable, it feels like you're trapped, but it is the very place in which a magical work is being done, and it is a choice, whether you yield to it, or you push against it. I'm choosing to yield and I'm allowing the 'dirt' to do a work in my life that will be transformative, spectacular and beautiful... All I have to do is keep working, even when it's dark, scary and uncomfortable. This year will be the year I drop good news on the blog and it will stay because it was planted in good soil and built on sturdy foundations.
I'm looking forward to what this year brings. Hopefully, new career prospects and so much more to come. Happy New Year Family, let's make it a good one.



photography by Yossy Akinsanya - Edits by myself.



xo

7 comments

  1. Happy New Year Sade. I'm sad you lost your dream job, but I'm sure that God has an even dreamier one for you in place. I'll look up the Planted Not Buried series, as it seems like a good message to hear.

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  2. Happy New Year! Test before the Testimony. I'm glad that you made it through! Wishing you the best!
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  3. Hi Sade, I can't help but poin out the fact that I can totally relate to your work situaton. Seeking comfort in the work of God (sermons) and having a strong support system really helps. I was let off my very first graduate job which I loved but the company and I somehow decided it wasn't a great fit. I felt like a failure initially but I came to accept it. Luckily enough I had a trip planned so that took my mind off things. You are not alone, just thought I would share this with you and you will have a huge testimony to share come end of the year.

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  4. Happy new year Sade.
    I'm actually not bored of hearing about these stuff because they do inspire me and a bunch of others too.
    I'm sorry about the loss but I'm hopeful for you that this will be a year of harvest for you.
    Have a good one!

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  5. Happy New Year Sade!
    I'm so sorry that you lost your job, I do know that the God that has brought you this far has certainly not forgotten you. I hope 2019 exceeds your expectations in every way possible. xx

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  6. Anonymous1/12/2019

    I'm sorry that it has been a difficult year for you however I hope you can look back fondly on this time of growth under the soil. Thank you for directing me to 'Planted not buried'. It has been so useful for me too. Keep on going and never give up!

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  7. 2018 has been a rough year, and I am so amazed and inspired by your grace and positivity for the new year. Rooting for you in 2019!!! Flipping the perspective from buried to planted is something I will try to take with me into 2019. The second half of 2018 was very uncertain for me, and I still feel very uncertain. It's getting harder to find the fire in me, but messages like this challenge me to open my perspective and keep on keeping on. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability! Also, these images are absolutely beautiful. -Audrey | Brunch at Audrey's

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XOXO Sade

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